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Tuesday, April 3, 2007

My Life/ Down and Out!

It has been one of those days. Not as busy as I anticipated most of the Daycare kids are out sick with the nasty virus that's still going around. I only have 3 extra kids besides my own, but I can't hardly smile today. I feel alone today. Almost like I am so tired of everyone expecting so much from me I am disconnecting myself from everyone. I feel like no one really knows how I feel at times. I have so many things going on right now. I'm trying to be there for so many friends, loved ones I just don't know where to start. I feel like so many things are just expected of me. I carry everyones burdens on my shoulders. My sister is spending very little time with her son and so that puts more pressure on me. I know he is not my son but it's not his fault that any of this is happening and I just want him to have a good life. I want him to be loved and well taken care of. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I have no one to talk to. It seems like everybody wants something from me. I have a couple coming over tonight with their new baby that I might start watching in May so I have to snap out of this.

7 comments:

Lee said...

Keep your chin up, Shelly. Take a few steps back from it all, take a deep breath and remember who "you" are. Put everyone else's problems in an imaginary big box, tie a huge ribbon around it and drop it into the deepest part of an imaginary lake.

Try your utmost to spend some time to yourself and for yourself...pick a time...anytime...just shut down from all that is going on around you.

Let me know how the diary goes with your daughter. :)

thwen said...

Yeah, what lee said is true. Hope you'll feel better. =)

EvolutioN said...

me thinks that all ya need to do is what arnie did for that sweet lil strange movie Kindergarten cops...

go into a room, shut the door, then scream at the top of your voice... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... believe me, it helps!

he he he he...

but seriously, your kids are waaaaayyyy toooo cute...


Love, laughter n keep the Faith

S

*adelaine said...

i understand how that feels.. it seems that sometimes when people call your name it is to ask for something. :)

But just try and take some "me" time.. destress a little, things will feel much better afterwards.

Wanda said...

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Jane Doe said...

I totally get how that feels, all the expectations and such. I hope that you feel better soon. Hang in there.

And yes, please feel free to add me to your blog index, it would be much appreciated!!

Jane Doe said...

P.S. Do you mind if I add this blog to my list of blogs on my site?

Jane