Wednesday, February 28, 2007

My Life/ The Heros we don't see/ My Life

I watched the special with Bob Woodruff called To Iraq and back. It was so good. I did not know that he was near death or that they believed that if he lived he would never be able to talk or walk again. What a man of great strength, he is doing both. And of course behind every good man lies a very strong women. His wife what courage and compassion she has. I guess I never thought much about the service men and women who are injured over in Iraq. We always hear about the casualties of war, but not ever do we hear about the ones that have suffered serious injury. These families they had on there just touched my heart. We forget because it is so easy to go on with our daily life and not think about what is really happening over there. I mean my sisters husband is serving for his second time in Iraq, and even we tend to forget all that goes on nor will we ever really know all the things these poor soldiers must endure each day. My sisters showed me some pictures of her husbands company stationed over in Iraq today, and in these pictures there were Iraq children playing and looking as happy as can be. And in another there was an American solider shaking hands with an Iraq family. I may not fully agree with this war, but I think we all could see a positive difference American Soldiers are making in Iraq if we choose to. Do I want all of our troops home safely? Yes of course, but I do realize our freedom is not free. To keep this country safe I realize we must clean house other places in that sense. These men and women fight for our freedoms and are truly Hero's in every way.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

My Life/ My son is heart broken

My son is 9 and he is a ladies man. He has loved girls since he was a baby. In fact at the age of five when most boys believe that girls have cooties my son was kissed by a girl in my back seat. All the girls just love him. Well before Christmas he and this girl became "boyfriend and girlfriend" Oh my gosh this boy was crazy acting. he could not sleep at night because he could not wait to see her at school. He was pushing her on the swings, giving her piggy back rides, even holding her hand. He even asked me if he could kiss her on the cheek, which of course I said NO. Anyway this love affair only lasted until January then she decided that she did not like him anymore. And instead of just saying we broke up she had to be evil and tell him that she hated him and that he was stupid and all sorts of nasty stuff. Being the sensitive boy that he is, this just devastated him. Certain songs he would hear he would say reminded him of her, Hello 9 years old. Anyway he started not wanting to go to school, he basically lost all of his self confidence. My husband and I tried to make him feel better, but I still can't believe how much this has affected him. He finally started liking a few other girls around Valentines day. I went to his Valentines party and thats when I seen her, the girl who broke his heart. She was this cute very tiny girl that walked around that class room like she was all that. Although my son liked someone else, I still seen it in his eyes how much he still liked her and it was like it almost hurt him being around her. She just blew right by him almost like he did not exist. It broke my heart watching him in such pain. "Did I mention he is only 9 years old." These kids are starting young. At nine I still thought boys had cooties. Still almost 2 months after the break up he still is not the same about school, I hate to see what happens when he is really in love someday and some evil girl breaks his heart. He is just growing up way to fast. I am sooo not ready for this.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

My Life/ Friend in need!! My Life

So I have this friend well she is one of my best friends, we have been friends since 5th grade and I'm 30 so you do the math. We have been friends for a very long time. Anyway she is 6 months pregnant with her second child. Her husband (also someone I would consider a friend) just tells her that he is unhappy and that he has been unhappy for years now. They have been married for almost seven years, and actually been together since 9th grade. In fact I am the one who introduced them. Anyway he does not know how he feels anymore. At the moment he says he basically feels nothing for her. He pretty much blames her because he say's that she neglected him with affection for many years. Meaning Sex was way more important to him than to her. Despite the fact they have been together for a very long time, they did not get married young, and they did not have their first child until 2 years ago. So it's not like they rushed into anything. I feel so pissed at him, how can he tell his pregnant wife this? On the other hand I guess you can't help how you feel, but what a crappy time to tell sombody. He is not sure what he wants, so she must bear with him until he figures it out. I guess thats what gets me. She will do anything to get him to stay, she wants their marriage to work, and he is just saying well I'm not sure, we will have to see. She is alot like me, a planner, she must know whats going to happen, so this whole situation is making her vulnerable. She is really putting her heart out there. I wish I could help her, I mean I listen and try to be there. She is not the type to cry, unlike me, she holds things in does not show emotion and let me tell you she has been showing all her emotions. I asked her do you think he has somebody else? She said no, I know that might sound bad on my part but honestly if someone is going to leave someone 90% of the time they have someone waiting in the wings. But she does not think that at all. Me I'm not so sure. Hmm. It's really got me thinking about my marriage though. When you are in any type of committed relationship you really do put your heart out there with the chance of getting it broke. Even the best marriages can fall apart. I can't stop thinking about it (my OCD again) hopefully he will figure what he wants sooner rather than later so she can move on with her life. I really hope they can work it out, but if he does not want to be with her then he should just set her free and not leave her just dangling. Either you want your marriage to work and you are going to try or you don't. I guess we will find out.

Friday, February 23, 2007

My Life/ TGIF/ My Life

I am so thankful it's friday, it has been a very long week. My grandparents are celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary tomorrow. Wow 50 years of marriage, thats such a long time. My son also has a basketball game tomorrow, and we have baseball sign-ups. So it will be a busy one. My 6 year old daughter is having problems at school. She cried three days this week when I put her on the bus. It was heart breaking. I asked her what was a matter, are kids mean to you? She said no she does not like writing in her journal. So I called her teacher yesterday, and she told me that she does not have a lot of confidence in herself, which just shocked me. Out of all three of my children, she gets the most attention. I mean she is the middle child, but she is such a sweetheart so everybody just adores her. My husband worships her. I could only wish I had the relationship with my own Dad, that my husband and daughter share. I guess she thinks she is not smart and she is really hard on herself. And Journal time is what she really struggles with. I guess I am going to have to work with her more and try to raise her confidence. I never knew being a parent would be such a full time job. Having three really is a juggle at times. In my opinion babies are the easiest, it's when they are older it gets complicated. I don't want to screw them up. Anyway, Anna Nicole Smith gets to be buried in the Bahamas with her son, which I am happy about. BUT.... The mother of Anna is of course appealing the decision. Hopefully the judgement will stand. Have a great weekend everyone.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

My Life/ Still obsessed over the whole Anna Nicole Smith story/ My Life

I can't stop watching court TV, I feel like such a nerd. I am still so obsessed over the Anna Nicole Smith story. Howard K Stern along with Vergie Arthur (Anna's mother) and Larry Birkhead all took the stand. The whole thing is such a mess. It really makes you think about death and the purpose of a will. If she would have had a more up to date Will, half this stuff would not even be an issue. It must be my obsessive compulsive, disorder coming out as to why I can't stop thinking about this case. The whole thing bothers me, and I'm sure not sure why. As I am writing this tonight, I am listening to the television talking about the case. I guess my biggest issue is, why is it so hard to let the women rest in peace. To most it is obvious to let her be buried next to her son. Regardless as to who the baby's daddy is, or if she was on drugs. Bottom line let her be near her son. If this idiot judge rules in the mothers favor, which will not shock me, I will be so pissed. This judge is such a jerk, he is carrying this thing out just for the publicity I swear. I guess this poor women even in death is being used. I just don't get it.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

My Life/ One of those days/ My Life

It's been one of those day's. I swear it feels like a monday. I feel like I can't accomplish anything. My life is just crazy right now. I want something so bad right now, I just don't know how to get it. My mind is just turning. I want instant results when I know it is not possible, this will be a long process. I have to keep telling myself to have patience. I have been doing a lot of thinking about life lately. I have such a terrible fear of the unknown. I am a planner, I like to know where, when, and why. Thats me. When there is doubt, I get very nervous. Any way Howard K Stern took the stand today and stated what he believes Anna Nicole Smiths wishes were. She wanted to be buried next to her son in the Bahamas. I guess I just don't understand why her mother feels the need to fight for her daughters body when she did not even know her. Why not just let her be buried next to her son. Why fight over it. Get real, what a circus.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

My Life/ Free blogger Templates/ My Life

I recently just changed my blogger Template. I got tired of the same old Templates that blogger had to offer. I just see that everyone has the same blogger templates. So I went searching the internet for Free Blogger Templates. I thought these places were neat and I thought I'd share them with you. Here are the links for free blogger Templates.

Friday, February 16, 2007

My Life/ Hiccups/ My Life

I just seen on the news that a Florida teen has had the hiccups for over three weeks. That is unbelievable. She has actually hiccuped 50 times in one minute. Doctors have no clue what to do for her. That would be so annoying, I can't even begin to imagine. Apparently they go away when she sleeps. That is so weird. And I see that the whole Anna Nicole Smith case just keeps getting more strange by the day. Another man claims he is the father of her daughter. Just get it done with, find out who's the baby's father and move on with it. The poor women can't even be released from the medical examiners because everyone is fighting over her body. Her Mom really drives me crazy, she has not spoken to her daughter in forever and yet she feels the need to fight over where she is buried. Let the poor women be next to her son in the Bahamas. Let her rest in peace. These idiots are all coming out for their 15 minutes of fame. Give me a break!!!

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

My Life/ Happy Valentines Day!!! / My Life

Well just another day around here. My husband and I deceided not to make a big deal about Valentines day this year, not that we ever really do. We just have to much going on. I think after 9 years of marriage and three kids we don't have the time. I got my kids each alittle something for Valentines day that I plan on giving them after school. My son made some special valentines for a few special girls at school.(how sweet, he is such a sweetheart) Anyway just thought I would wish everybody a Happy Valentines Day. Hope you are spending it with someone special.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

My Life/ I'm obsessed/ My Life

Okay I admit it, I have a problem. I am obsessed with the Anna Nicole mystery. At night I watch every news channel that offers something on her. I'm so confused after hearing all these different stories. I think on Entertainment tonight they had Howard on there, (his emotional reunion with Anna's daughter). I heard he got paid big bucks for that interview. Honestly if you just lost the love of your life would you want to be on TV grieving just days after her death? To get paid for it at that. I just don't get it. I did feel rather sorry for him but now maybe everyone is right he just wants fame. It must be my OCD coming right now, my obsession. Why should any of this shit matter to me. I'm crazy!! Something else very strange happened in the town I live in, a women was found dead in her house over the weekend with her 5 year old daughter fending for herself. I guess the women had been dead for at least 5 days. A neighbor finally got worried and called the police. This poor little girl just thought her mother was sleeping she told police. My neighbor knows one of the firemen that went in first, I guess he almost got sick from the smell. She was found naked on the couch. Not sure why? No foul play is suspected. I guess food was everywhere, the little girl was eating raw eggs. Poor kid!!! I have a 6 year old and I would hope that if I did not wake up she would call someone for help. I guess this 5 year old girl has some problems, so maybe she just did not understand. In any case it's freaky. Wonder what she died from? So young it really freaks me out. Me and my obsessions!!!!!!

Monday, February 12, 2007

My Life/ More on Anna!!! / My Life

Oh my gosh all over the news Anna Nicole Smith. Her life, how did she die? Was Howard K Stern involved. All these unanswered questions. The world is so curious. The thing that really bothers me still is her family. Her mother was on Good Morning America this morning from the Bahamas. Trying to see her grand daughter. Please, she's not spoken to her daughter in 10 years, what makes her think she has the right to her grand daughter? I understand how Howard is a questionable father figure for this child, but so is her family. I mean there has to be a reason why she had not had contact with any of her family. I do not believe it is all Howards fault. In my own opinion I believe they were both misusing drugs. I think after the death of her son, things just got worse. There must be so much more to this story. I guess we all will just have to stay tuned.

Friday, February 9, 2007

My Life/ Anna Nicole Smith/ My Life

I still can hardly believe that Anna Nicole Smith has passed away. I have no idea why it bothers me so much. It might be because she was so young. And maybe because she has been in the news so much. I remember feeling shocked when I first heard about her son. I used to watch her reality show on E. It used to give me good laughs. I almost felt like I knew them. When her son died I just felt so bad for her. No mother ever wants to loose a child. I think all moms wether they liked her or not, felt such compassion and heartache for her. Especially for it to happen right after the birth of her daughter. Now for this to happen. Her poor daughter. Who's her father? Who would Anna want to raise her. I have been watching interviews with her estranged family. They are getting their 15 minutes of fame. She had not spoke with her sister in years and now her sister is saying who should get her daughter. Please it is so obvious that Anna did not want anything to do with those people, yet they feel they should have a say. It's such a sad thing. Anna had such a hard life growing up, I think thats why she alway's seemed so messed up. The whole thing just makes you wonder. Rest in Peace Anna.

Thursday, February 8, 2007

My Life/ Cynthia Sommers/ My Life

After watching Larry King last night I think that Cynthia Sommers may have gotten a raw deal. He interviewed her from jail. After listening to her speak I have a lot of compassion for her. Maybe I'm just being stupid but I really don't think that there was enough evidence to convict her of murdering her husband. I didn't know to much about this case until last night. It is my understanding that they did not find the arsenic until she donated his organs. If she poisoned him why would she donate his organs? That would be enough reasonable doubt for me. I believe the jury looked at her actions after the fact. Who really knows how a grieving person will react after loosing someone they love. Honestly until it happens to you, who are we to judge. Who cares that a few months after his death she was having sex with others. I see her point she was looking for comfort. Not saying I would do the same, but sleeping around does not make you a murderer. Who cares if she took some of the money for a boob job, she also paid off a lot of debt they both acquired while married. And she put half the money in trusts for her children. Just because someone acts strange does not make them guilty. There is no direct evidence linking her to his death. How do you convict someone on nothing?

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

My Life/ It's Only My Opinion/ My Life

I am just an average person working to get by week to week, paycheck to paycheck. I am tired of doing the same old job day in and day out, and feeling like I am going nowhere. Surely not getting ahead, if anything falling more behind in credit card debt. The cost of living seems to go up every time we turn around, but our pay does not. Between gas prices and high heating bills what does one do to stay in the game? Like I said before I am just an average person , making an average living. My opinion doesn't count for much, but what is wrong with this country? Or should I say the leader of our country? It is not his loved ones fighting this war. He's not having any trouble making ends meet, if anything he is making money off this war. What about all of us common average people that are just left behind waiting. I tell my kids, work hard and you can achieve anything. I feel like I am lying to them. Circumstances stop us from achieving our goals. If you are not born into money, You will struggle, that is what I really feel like telling them. The world is not fair. You can graduate from college and still be working at a low paying job.
This war we are fighting, I do not understand. I don't know all the political crap, nor will I pretend to care. All that I do know is that my brother in law is serving in Iraq for the second time, leaving behind his wife and new daughter. FIGHTING FOR EXACTLY WHAT? My neighbor down the street, her brother also second time serving in Iraq. And the stories go on and on. Do we as Americans really have a voice. If I wrote a letter to our president here's a taste of what it might say:

Dear Mr President, You do not speak for all American people. You do not walk in our shoes, work our jobs, pay our bills or tuck our innocent children in bed every night. You do not have to tell grandparents, parents, brothers, sisters, and children, that their loved one was killed at war. To me a true leader cares about his people. Not just the ones with power and wealth.

Once again I am just an average person, but my view should count for something. If I can teach my kids anything, I hope to teach them that our voices really do matter. We should be heard, and we can make a difference. Lets not stop fighting for the good. Good will always prevail over evil. Peace

My Life/ Do We Really Have A Voice? / My Life

Sunday, February 4, 2007

My Life/ What women really want/ My Life

That universal age old question What do women really want? If only we came with a owners manual before our husbands married us. Telling them what kind of things make us tick, please us, and make us happy. My owners manual would state: I want a man that is honest, hardworking, loving, responsible, dependable and a man of his word. If you cannot provide this for me then look for someone else. If you can provide this for me you will inturn receive the following: Someone to love you always, when you are well, when you are sick. I will be there. If you loose your job, your dog or whatever I will be there. I will be the best wife and mother to your children that I can possibly be. If only relationships were that simple right? So what do women really want? For me it is just to be loved and to spend the rest of my life with my best friend. I want someone to understand my feelings and put them first. Someone to be there on my bad days. I believe this is what most women want.

Saturday, February 3, 2007

My Life/ Florida Tornado/ My Life

I still can't believe that Florida had such a terrible tornado rip through the central part of the state. The devestation it caused is unbelievable. The scarey part is that it happened during the night when people were asleep, so they had no warning. What a terrible thing to wake up to. It could'nt have happened at a more stranger time, with all the talk about Global Warming. Living in Michigan tornado's are not something we really have to worry about to often. Lately over the last few years, we have been having some pretty powerful storms ripping through here. Hmm, makes me wonder if it is all tied to this whole Global Warming issue. Pretty scarey if it is.

Thursday, February 1, 2007

My Life/ Caution at the Gas Pump/ My Life

The gas station explosion in West Virginia has really got me thinking about safety at gas stations. When I get gas I think nothing of getting out putting the nozzle in the tank and jumping back into my car with my kids. I did not realize how dangerous this could be. When you get out to pump your gas you should touch your door or the roof of your car before touching the gas pump. This will get rid of any of the static electricity that you may have. Static electricity can ignite gasoline vapors and trigger a fire. Stay outside when you are refuelling. Never get back in your car for anything, any contact with the cars interior carpet can give you static electricity. I also learned that 78% of these these fires happen to women, because we are more likely to get back in the car, especially in the winter months. Another thing if you have paseengers in your car when you are pumping your gas, you should have them remove their seat belts, so in case there is a fire they can escape easier. I always have my children with me and I never unbuckle them, my 2 year old is still in a car seat. I never ever thought about any of these things. The guilt I feel right now, I can't explain. I don't think I will ever even bring them with me to pump gas again.