Wednesday, January 31, 2007

My Life/ In the news/ My Life

I was watching Larry King last night. The wife that was accused of poisoning her husband, was found guilty. They had her lawyer on there. I just heard about this case about a week or so ago. I guess this happened a while ago. This wife and mother of four (I believe) was accused of poisoning her husband and he ended up dying. I guess what made her look so guilty to the jury was that in the weeks followong his death, she collected insurance money. With that money she got a boob job a month after his passing. She had sex with another couple, and three other men in the military. Does that make her a killer? Well I am not sure, but the jury must believe so. These kind of stories are so interesting to me, because if in fact she really did "do it" what makes a person cross that line? Money? The sad thing is if she really is innocent, she's going away for a long time. The poor kids they lost their Dad, and now their Mom. This world we live in, sometime I just wonder.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

My life/ Life/ My

I think I am suffering from writers block. I have so many things that I would love to write about, but when it comes time to type, my mind goes blank. I have always loved to write. It has always been my escape, my way of dealing with my feelings. As a teenager I wrote endless poems. Poems about frienship, love, loss, anything that affected my heart, I wrote about. It always hepled me feel better. I am one of those highly sensitive people. I anaylze everything. I drive my husband nuts. I think of everything. What people do say, what they don't say, I'm anaylizing it all. It sometimes drives me nuts being like this. But on the other hand that is just how I am, and who I am. I have to have a way of expressing my feelings or I go crazy inside. This also drives my husband nuts, he wants me to just get over things, and I want to just keep talking about them and my feelings. Some would say that I wear my heart on my sleeve, I put so much time and thought into things. When others don't do the same for me it hurts. I tend to think everyone thinks like me, which always leads me to a let down, or disappointment in my life.

My Life/ Life/ My

I am still trying to get use to this whole blog writing thing. My son had his first basketbal game on saturday, it was so much fun. He scored the first 2 points, so that was very exciting. I can't believe that the weekend is almost over. It sure flys right, by just like the rest of life.

Friday, January 26, 2007

My Life/ Life

I can't stop thinking about the boy who was kidnapped 4 years ago, and found alive. It boggles my mind that this sick man kidnapped young innocent boys. This poor boy. There are so many things I do not think any of us understand, the media so quick to judge. He had freedom, why did he not just leave? This sick man probably brain washed him into thinking he had to stay, that there was no other choice. Amazing!!! My prayers are with him and his family!!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

My life/ Life

Last night was the best I have slept in along time.. Not sure why? My two year old daughter is driving me crazy today. She woke up in a bad mood and has just been crying non-stop. Her tantrums are getting worse lately. Not sure how to handle her at times, nervous about taking her out in public. My older kids were never like that. They had their moments, but nothing like my 2 year old. She is so strong willed. My 9 year old son has not been wanting to go to school latley, he loved school until now, been trying to talk to him and ask him why, he just says he does not want to go. His girlfriend just broke up with him, so I don't know if that has something to do with it or not. He is nine though, to young to have a girlfriend. Not sure how to help!!!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

My Life/ Life

So I went to the doctor today to get some moles removed. I will know in a few days if they were cancerous or not. It got me to thinking about how precious life is. How thankful I am for my kids and that they are healthy. I would much rather have the scare for myself than for my kids or my husband. When you think of cancer you always think of death, at least for me I do. It scares the heck out of me. My kids need a mom. I have a son and two daughters. I have to be okay. There is really no other choice..

Sunday, January 21, 2007

My Life/ Life

That sad lonely feeling that you only feel at night, just keeps creeping up on me. That feeling I try to escape but I just can't. My husband works the night shift, so night time is the worst for me. I hate being alone. I have the kids home, but when you are depressed you don't feel like doing anything. I struggle just to keep my house clean these days. I often just sit and stare into space, thinking. The next thing you know an hour has passed. Snap out of this I tell myself, but I just can't, it's not that easy.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

My Life/ Life

This whole blog thing is new to me. I guess I am out of the loop. I have been really depressed latley so I thought maybe I could write alittle and get it off my chest. I am a 30 year old wife and Mom. Sometimes I feel that is all I am. Not really a person anymore. Just a wife and Mom. Searching for more out of life lately, but just don't know how to step forward.