Wednesday, July 30, 2008


We took the kids to the park last night and brought a pizza along and decided to stop and rent some movies. We don't know what to do with our new found freedom, for those of you who don't know Tyler decided not to play football for a season. It was a tough decision and he waited until the very last minute, I mean literally an hour before practice was starting. He just explained to us that he is so burned out from baseball he feels like he has not had much of a summer. He has been playing since 5 years old so I think it crushed John a bit at first but Tyler assured him that he would play next season and the more John thought about it he said it was for the best because he is pretty tired too. And this way maybe Tyler can actually gain some weight by not constantly exercising. He is going into the 5th grade and only weighs 55 pounds. So lets keep our fingers crossed for a growth spurt. Anyway back to my Movie. It was such a debate for me to rent Stop-Loss. I have a very hard time watching any war movies or anything that consists of soldiers for that matter, but John said he heard it was a good movie and assured me that if it got to be to much we could always stop the movie. Oh my gosh what a great movie, it was VERY difficult to watch everything reminded me of Todd. But it really opens yours eyes let me tell ya. What our government does to our Soldiers is not always fair. Even though there have not been a lot of US Soldiers being killed in Iraq recently we forget what these poor Soldiers must endure over there everyday and what they will go through the rest of their lives, the nightmares that will forever haunt them. Our government does not want us to see this, it makes people uncomfortable. They want us to just forget what this war has done to our heroes and in our case what this war has cost our family. Our love one is gone, never to hold his daughter again, I am reminded daily. By the end of the movie I was just crying so hard my stomach hurt. I dreamed of Todd all night. In one of my dreams, he would not look at me, I was begging with him not to go back to Iraq, not to leave and he just kept walking never looking back. I was restless the entire night. We still have not forgotten you Todd, we love and miss you. God bless all the Soldiers.....

Monday, July 28, 2008

Can anyone relate???

~ I hate the price of gas, I never thought I would see the day when I would be happy to see gas at $3 a gallon. It would be awesome to see it even that cheap again.

~ I love being a Mommy, I never thought I could love 3 kids so darn much....

~ I hate that time goes to fast, especially vacations they seem to be over just as fast as they have begun.

~ I love that Tyler still needs me to comfort him when he is sick or when he has a problem, I don't know what I will do when I am not the only woman in his life, it scares me to think that far ahead.

~ I hate that because of the price of gas, the price of groceries have gone way up, like milk for example, it adds up especially when you are buying 8 to 9 gallons a week.

~ I love watching kids eat, just seeing them full makes me feel satisfied, weird I know..

~ I love that after 10 years of marriage my husband still loves to hold me and loves me even when I am at my worst.

~ I hate Cancer and wish that no one would ever have to endure pain and sickness, but I do trust that it is all in God's plan.

~ I hate that I am not a water person, I would love to just feel comfortable in it..

~ I wish I would play more with my kids, I sometimes feel so jealous of how John is just so able to play more with them, I feel like I always have to much to do.

~ I love the sounds of kids giggling.

~ I love watching John with our daughters, I wish I had that with my own Dad.

~ I hate seeing my kids sick or scared.

~ I love it when John and I lay in bed and talk, those are some of the best conversations we have ever had.

~ I hate feeling vulnerable

~ I love holding Hailey when she sleeps

~ I love that so many people trust me with their kids

~ I hate waiting in line for anything. I wish I had more patience...

~ I love watching Mackenzie entertain, she reminds me so much of myself at her age, but she is way more beautiful than I ever was...

Friday, July 25, 2008

Missing My Kid's

I have gotten the chance this past week to feel what it is like to be one of those Moms that have to leave their children when they go to work. We felt like our kids did not get a chance to camp last weekend because of Tyler's baseball so we decided to extend our stay through this weekend. So John took Tuesday off and stayed with the kids at the camp ground and I got up at 5:30 am to come home for Daycare. It felt so weird to get up and leave by myself well actually I had Hailey with me because I made the mistake of telling her I was leaving in the morning and she flipped out, she is such a Mommy's girl so I promised her I would bring her along in the morning. This morning when I got up to come home, I kissed John and all the kids which were all still sleeping (lucky bums) and got this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach. I was actually feeling sad that I would not be seeing them until after 6 tonight. So as I drove home at 5:30 am this morning I just cried and cried wishing I would have at least brought Hailey. I was feeling sorry for myself because Hailey had told me the night before that she wanted to stay with her Daddy because she wanted to swim and see Yogi. Luckily for me when I got home I found her blankie that we had left at home yesterday, so I felt like I had something of her with me. I feel terrible for all you Mom's that have to leave your kids to go to work every day, I so take that for granted. Now next week when they are all back I may feel differently.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Camping with the Mott's....

We went camping with the Mott clan this past weekend and had a blast even though we were probably driving more than actually camping because of Tyler's baseball games, but when we were there we certainly made the most of it. For as long as I have known Lisa (which is a very long time) we always know that when we get together it will be a guaranteed good time. Things always seem to happen when we are together, and we always end up laughing until our stomach hurts. This weekend was no exception, I think my stomach is still hurting. We came up with new nicknames for our husbands, "Dumb & Dumber" They are the only two that think each other are funny and not only laugh at themselves but also at each other. Everything is a completion between the two of them, I actually heard my husband say to Brian "lets see who can throw their kid farther in the pool."
Lisa and I had great fun backing the wave runner trailer into a parking spot at the state park while our husbands we screwing around, needless to say we gave a lot of spectators quite a show but we did it, and Lisa had to show the guys how to keep a fire going, you go girl... We found out that John makes awesome popcorn on the fire. After the rest of us took turns burning it. Lisa & I took the wave runner out on the lake by ourselves and lets just say that I will not be driving it any time soon, I learned that I am a much better passenger than driver. All in all we had a really good time. Thanks for camping with us Mott Family.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Prayers needed...

I just found out this morning that a friend of mine has skin cancer, the same kind her Grandfather died from. She is very upset and could use all the prayers we can send. She will visit U of M next week to find out if the cancer has spread. She has 2 small daughters so please keep her and her family in your prayers. One thing I will be doing besides praying for her is canceling my tanning membership, I WILL NEVER TAN AGAIN. Here that friends that see me every day if I ever want to tan please stop me, it is not worth it. Let this all teach us to beef up on the SPF when we are outside. To my friend if you are reading this, YOU WILL BEAT THIS, IF ANYBODY CAN IT'S YOU. You are in my thoughts and prayers....

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Family Fun.....

Saturday we had this cook out planned at my sister in laws house in Rockford. Lunch was going to be at 11:30 and then we were going to go out in their boat. Saturday morning we woke up to rain and it looked like rain for a good portion of the day on the radar. Do we cancel or do we take a chance and hope it clears up??? Well luckily for us we did not cancel and the weather turned out to be beautiful. My kids love the water, they must get this from their father because I am still a bit afraid of water. I am not much of a swimmer so whenever I know I am over my head I freak out inside. Since I have been with John I have been a bit better but I still wish I could be a bit more daring at times. My sister in law has a beautiful boat, my kids favorite part, the toilet, how awesome that they could actually have a bathroom to use instead of the lake. Thats all they have talked about. Yes we are a strange family!!! Any way the day could not have been any more perfect, I just felt sorry for my mother in law she also does not care for the water (so I am not alone) but she really can't handle watching the boys tube well at least the falling off part. She was almost in tears, I think a lot may have to do with her seeing her brother in law Drown in Fremont lake a very long time ago, so anyone of course would be scared. All in all it was a wonderful day, and we can't wait to do it again.... Hint, hint Aunt Sheri & Uncle Kelly....

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Ramblings of Emma

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

4th of July Weekend

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Just My Luck....

Wouldn't you know I have been working so hard on my darn flowers and a terrible storm blows through Lakewood club and floods my driveway and yard. Wednesday afternoon I knew there was a chance for severe weather, so when it started getting dark outside I rounded all the kids up and did I mention I was starting to feel ill. John had ran a slight temp and felt horrible the day before and wouldn't you know I caught it the very next day. So here I am starting to feel weak and miserable trying to get a bunch of wild kids back inside and all they want to do is play outside. First came the thunder and lightning then the rain. Or should I say down pour. Then the hail came and not just a tiny bit of hail, it must have hailed a good 10 minutes here. Just enough time to rip up most of my hostas, the kids were going crazy with all the noise. I kept having to keep them away from the windows because all they wanted to do was watch the storm. What really got me was when I looked out the door and seen half of a bag of mulch floating down my driveway. My flowers by my door were completely under water. All I could think of was all my hard work under all that water. The night before I had just put fresh mulch around a few areas, now it was all under water floating around my yard. The mulch I had on the side of my house somehow made it to the front of my house. Every flower looked like shit, thats the only word I can use to describe it. My mother in law came over after work to inspect the damage because of course I called her in a panic. So here I am running a temp, trying to clean mulch up all over my yard. I am thinking can I be anymore obsessed over these flowers? To make myself feel better my mother and law and I went to Weesies and got us both some new flowers and the good news some of the other ones are starting to perk back up. I know I am officially a flower freak.