Monday, February 25, 2008

My Life/ Finally we made it to church...

After about a month of trying we finally made it to church Sunday morning. Our previous attempts have failed because of being ill and the weather. Mackenzie was thrilled, I have no idea why but this girl wants for us so badly to attend church on a regular basis. Ever since Todd's passing it is something that I have wanted to do but church has never been an importance in my Life. I believe in God, and I attended church as a child but I just have not made the time as an adult to attend. But in this past year I have found myself turning to God and praying alot more when life was falling apart all around me. I look at my kids and it is something I really want for them. I want God to be first in their life. Mackenzie has this spirit about her, it's hard to explain. Whenever I am down and out about something she just has this way about her. She often asks me to pray for people and things. This often shocks me because she has not ever gone to church. We attended a Birthday celebration for a little boy who passed from cancer this past year and after we left Mackenzie informed me that she prayed for the boy and his family when we released balloons at the beach. She said Mom I said the prayer in my head.. All I could think was how remarkable that was for her. At 7 I'm not even sure if she understands the whole concept of death, but she must understand a whole lot more than I am giving her credit for. She was so happy getting ready for church and while we were there, I watched her pay close attention to everything that was said. As soon as it was over she said, we are going again next week right... I'm so very proud of her and I think that church will start to be more of a priority on our lists. On another note I checked Tyler's grades online Friday and wow was I shocked. He is getting three D's. I cried, I just could not believe it, Tyler has always gotten such good grades. I talked with him after school Friday and he just started crying saying that school is just so hard and he is struggling to understand everything. Talk about feeling like a bad parent, I had no idea he was having such a problem. I want to call his teacher but I must admit I am a bit nervous. I really do not care for her to well. I told him to start bringing all of his books home and I would try to help him out. I never thought I would have to worry about this with Tyler, school work has always just came so easy for him. This parenting stuff only gets harder with age, don't let anyone fool you.


jennschultz said...

I am so with you on the church issue. I want to do it for the kids. But it has not been a regualr part of my life. The older I get, the more I use prayer for my own comfort. Maybe because I feel like I have more to lose now than I ever have. I tend to think of myself as spiritual, not religious. I think we just need to find the right fit for a church.
Good luck with Tyler. I dread the day that I have issues with a teacher. Thats gotta make for a rough year. All of us feel like we scew up or drop the ball sometimes, and its great to hear what you are currently dealing with. It gives insight as to what is ahead for us. I am sure he will be fine. Every one struggles at some point in school-I know I did. You are not a bad parent. you're a wonderful parent for jumping in and taking charge!

Anonymous said...

I give you guys a lot of credit! You have been through so much this past year as a family and I think finding the right church "family" will only help bring everyone closer. Like I said today, Tom and I would love to start attending with you guys. So, plan on us joining you while he's on his road to recovery. I'm hoping Lukas and Andon enjoy it as much as Kenzie. Thanks for letting us share this part of your life with you!!

Kristin said...

I think it is wonderful that your guys are going to church. I think only good can come from this. In todays crazy world it is nice to know there is a "constant". It is amazing how God knows when you are down and is just there. Always have faith; it is the one thing that will guarantee to get you through today and looking forward to tomorrow!
Good luck with Ty, I am sure it is a phase that he is going through. You are doing all you can by realizing there is a problem and trying to fix it versus just ignoring it and hoping it goes away.
Please, don't be so hard on yourself all of the time. You are a great mom and you do the best you can do. What more could three great kids ask for????

Life in the Fast Lane said...

Thats great that you guys were able to make it to chuch Sunday, I know you have been trying. In todays busy world it is so easy to put church on the back burner, but it leaves a void in your life. The fact that Kenzie finds such comfort in prayer shows that you have done a wonderful job instilling spirtuality in your children already and I'm sure going to church will only add to what you have already instilled in them. Good luck with Ty. I'm sure he will be able to pull up his grades with a little extra help. I think it would be a good idea to give his teacher a call and let her know that you are concerned about what is going on and that this is not normal for him at all...might get her thinking a little.
<3 ya!

Katie McKenna said...

Good luck with Ty.... Talk to his teacher. Why did she not say anything either?

we are working with Jayda here...

Kenzie is such a loving girl!Like her mama!

Jazz was my church goer. Now Kayli - Kayli went two weeks ago and hasn't stopped talking about it.She's almost 10.

Jodi said...

The online grade thingy is great. At least you are able to catch the problem early. How was Tyler's report card? Is this a recent development? If you are too nervous to call the teacher, why don't you email her? It might be a good place to start. This way you only get emotional online, then see what she has to say. Don't be so hard on yourself. I know I would totally feel the same way you do, but you really can't go there. I'm sure there are options...just email her to find out what those options are.

Ramblings of a Crazy Mom said...

It's great that you guys are trying to go to church. It's helped our family a tremendous amount through our struggles we went through a year and a half ago. It's amazing how much love and concern they showed and helped us get back on the right track with our marriage. If you want any suggestions I know a couple of really good ones in the area that have early and late morning services that sometimes helps when you have a bunch of young kids to school.

We've been having the same struggle with our oldest this year with school too. He does so well in certain subjects and then really struggles with others. Just email the teacher or set up a conference. If she doesn't give you the right answers seek another source to help him. Maybe an after school tutor.