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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

A bit of relief...





Finally my day of dread is over, meaning Hailey's first day of school. All weekend long it was all I thought about. We did so many fun things but in the back of my mind it was always there. John thinks I am crazy, he did not understand what the big deal was, I think in my case I have never had to send my kids somewhere, so the whole trusting my kids with others who don't really know them is such a huge deal to me. I acted the same when each kid started school but honestly this time around affected me way more because she is my last one. The night before I probably got maybe 2 hours sleep, I either had a stomach bug or it was just my nerves, so by the time I got her on the bus I was just a wreck with no sleep. She did so good, but as the bus pulled away I bawled like a baby. I jumped in the truck and headed to school so that I could find a secret spot to watch her get off the bus. Camera in hand I waited and pretty soon the cutest little girl in pig tails just jumps off the bus all excited and followed a helper right to her class. I should have left but being the stalker I am I had to follow. She had a bit of trouble opening the door to her class room but she made it in and I watched from the window for a bit. She put her back pack up and started playing with puzzles. I cried the whole way home. She doesn't need her Mommy like she used too. Now the reality sets in and time presses on. My next huge milestone will be with Tyler when he goes into middle school next year, oh well at least I have a whole year to prepare myself..

2 comments:

Lisa said...

I am so glad that Hailey is doing well and liking school so much. She looks so excited in the morning getting on the bus. I laughed so hard when Kendall came home that first day and told me that she had seen you at school hiding behind the bushes taking pictures!! LOL=) The saying that when you become a mother you forever wear your heart outside your body is so true...

jennie said...

Girl, you crack me up! I am picturing "Secret Agent Shelly" hiding in the bushes at the school. I wonder what I would think of some woman hiding in the bushes outside my daughters school! lol!!
You are so silly. Of course she needs her Mommy. Forever. We all do. Hang in there. We are all in it with you. One day at a time:)